yesterday was one of the worst days of my life.
“Hello?”
“Uhhh…hi…are you the owner of a dog named Bullet?” Relief. Someone found him.
“Yes yes yes. Did you find him?”
“How old are you sweetie?”
“….sixteen?”
“I’m so, so sorry, your dog isn’t alive anymore. He was hit by a car on Glenoaks.”
And that’s what happened. Shock. Anger. Complete and utter sadness. What do I do now? Am I dreaming? This can’t be happening. I was playing with him just last night. Why? How? Who?
On Sunday morning, my dog ran out of the gate that was accidentally left open. Sometime around noon, I got the call from a man who had seen what happened and he brought my dog home, wrapped in newspapers. I could only see his tail and hind legs, and suddenly I was hit with an extreme amount of sadness. Tears, sobs, screams. I couldn’t believe he was dead. I brought a blanket out and the man wrapped my little dog, my baby, in the blanket. He then carried the dog to my backyard and placed him in a shady corner. I was left alone with the dead body of the thing that meant the most to me in this world. I can’t believe he’s gone. Coming home today to complete silence was the hardest part I think. As pathetic as it sounds, I called his name. I called and called, at least 7 or 8 times, as if he would come running out torwards me. “Bullet. Bullet where are you? Bullet, come here. Bullet, please.” Obviously, he didn’t come, and I fell to the floor sobbing. Sobbing like a little kid. I miss my dog so much. I don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to get over it. That dog meant more to me than I can ever, ever explain. He was there to cuddle with whenever I was upset. He was there to make me laugh with every dumb, cute thing he did any time I needed cheering up. He was there to take long walks with me when I needed to think. And now he isn’t here, and I don’t know what to do anymore. My heart aches and the tears won’t stop.
I will miss my dog every day, and I will remember him with everything I do. But, this is life, and no matter what, it goes on.
Rest in Peace Bullet Baby<3 I love you so much. You were the most amazing dog I could ever ask for. You gave me 4 years worth of memories and laughter, and I could never thank you enough.
